MalinaSiAtat

The only time I lied to you Was when I pretended I didn't expect The breaku- The parting. When in fact, I had written two poems Just one night before. You left because I didn't have a shower mat In my bathroom, you even gifted me one And you were mad that I didn't place it where you wanted. "You don't live your life to the fullest!" you said, While bitching about my minimalistic furniture. I would burst into laughter If it weren't for the 4 months You took away from me.

Not to force myself to write one As if it was February or March and We were happy, but- Your skin and everything Your "You looked so beautiful last night" When my head was hurting because of a migraine And you still thought I was pretty Where are they Where are your words and your skin And your hands crawling towards me In bed Where are you, what happened-

I forgot to write one when it was good So here's one when it's so bad it stinks Just like your sweater that you wash by hand Every 2-3 weeks after you wear it Every 2-3 days after you air it out To air out smell- It smells like a break-u- No, people who weren't together Don't break up What a joy we've never been together Imagine the suffering Oh so good you've never felt emotions- Otherwise you would've noticed the tears Of desperation of losing someone I've never had, I've only had se- I've only made love to you, And you to me And we also cooked together- Together forever, there's no way I get close To someone unless I see us together forever And I've never lasered my eyes like you did So I barely see the real you And you, you with your big ears You barely hear me, But that's good because my screams Would scare you off, not that you're not Already scared off and gone I am "Seen✓✓" but not seen I have this crazy idea that no one sees the real me That's why you didn't fall in love

If you take a film — any film — And you dig deep enough into the plot, Searching for meanings, answers, Shelter, Anything that a regular human being Needs and wants at a certain time During a regular day (Sundays excluded), If you do this, then you’ll find yourself Talking to a wall, speaking to yourself, But you will find yourself. I found you in every film that you ever liked, I liked every film you ever watched I watched you shyly coming And confidently drifting away.

Goran, you’re a poet, And you’d think poetry lasts forever, Well, it doesn’t, everything before “Goran”, Everything before you, I’m burying. I’m burying even the one I never wrote a single poem for. Goran, you’re the sweetest, But I don’t know how your lips taste, Well, I’ll never know, since you’re so far away, So far away that I cannot reach you, No matter how much I stretch my arms After I wake up and you’re gone. Goran, you’re in love With films, books, places and people That will come and go, and you’ll stay the same, Stay the best, reach out for the stars, And if we’re really lucky We might be gazing at the same one.